Spiritual Lessons
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Driving on the Beach, Long Beach, Astoria and Fort Stevens State Park
It always feels good to pack up the van and pull out to the next destination. Especially when I have no idea where that is. There is something magical about just letting myself be guided; going where the wind blows me, so to speak.
I didn’t need to go far before I found myself at my next destination, Long Beach, Washington. Long Beach boasts itself as being the Worlds Longest Beach, however it is really a 28 mile long Peninsula. Yes, I drove the length of it.
What I really liked about Long Beach, was, like Westport, it just wasn’t that crowded. Not like the Oregon Coastal towns. Driving onto the beach was legal and so I took my Van right onto the beach with the back facing the ocean. When the winds got heavy, it was cold or the sun intense, I could seek shelter in the van. One couldn’t ask for a better view.
In Long Beach, I spent the majority of my time, not at the beach, but on the beach. We couldn’t camp overnight there, so I found a vacant City Lot where Van Lifers were parked for the night. Other than having a horrible nightmare that my Van was being broken into and I was being violently attacked, the night went well.
In telling a friend about the nightmare, she suggested it might be more symbolic about someone in my life who really wants to hurt me and cause me pain. My friend felt my Van represented my home, or personal space and the attacker a significant person in my life who would probably love it if I was no longer on the planet. Yes, this is a real person.
I’ve learned that although some people may not like me and want me to suffer, I would give no energy to the attacks. I recognized that it is never about me, but rather about the person who is projecting their own inner demons upon me. Not my demons! You leave someone like this alone with their demons long enough, their own demons will turn against them in time. Meanwhile I get on with my life and leave them in my rear view mirror.
After my night in Long Beach, I drove on down the road to find a place where I could make my tea, kick back and write in my journal. I found a sweet little County Park on the Columbia River. The Columbia River comes down from Canada, through Washington, the Washington Gorge, Portland, Oregon and joining the Pacific Ocean at Astoria, Oregon. It is a very large river.
In past trips, I noticed I was often destination oriented and didn’t take the time to stop and smell the roses, or drink the coffee. This time was different. I really wanted to take my time and really explore what the places I visited had to offer.
On my way to Long Beach I found this really cool coffee house on the River in South Bend, Washington. I hung out there, charged my electronics, and wrote a blog post. I tried their curry lentil soup which was Vegan, and they had a vegan treat to go with my decaf Americano. It is not so often I find places where I can order something that fits my diet. It is a rare find, and a great treat to find such a place.
Although I have crossed the long bridge to Astoria many times, I actually never turned left to go into the City of Astoria and check out it’s historic Downtown. This time I made the left. I’m glad I did. I browsed through a couple shops, talked to few people and enjoyed the quaint old town.
The bridge from Washington to Astoria, Oregon is 4.1 miles long. It crosses the Columbia River and goes up very high so the ships going out to Sea can sail under the bridge. The Columbia River separates Washington from Oregon in many places.
My next stop was across another big draw bridge from Astoria to Warrington. Warrington had a Natural Grocers and a Starbucks in one parking lot….SCORE!
Warrington is also home to Fort Stevens State Park where I spent a part of my day. At the point, at Fort Stevens, the Columbia river is on one side and the Pacific Ocean on the other. There is a jetty separating the two and you can walk out quite a ways on the jetty if you want to.
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A Wedding and a Celebration of Life and a Releasing
I was on my way to my son’s Wedding when I learned my beloved Aunt had passed away after a long battle with Cancer. Being that the Celebration of Life would be in the Pacific Northwest, I knew I needed to go. As it turned out the Wedding was on the 20th and the Celebration of Life on the 25th. Both events brought the family together, and it was a time of reunion, tears and celebration.
As I write this both events are in my rear view mirror. I went from the Celebration of Life to the Washington Coast, which was only a half hour away from where the memorial was.
The Ocean is a great place to release, to let go of accumulative emotional energy. It is a great place to put my feet in the sand, to ground and connect with the great power of big water.
Water represents the emotions. It is said that the sea is a great place to get in touch with your emotions and the desert a great place to “dry out.” It is beautiful to have the opportunity for both sides of the spectrum.
There is a reason people go to the sea when they are grieving. It is as if they are giving their grief to the sea; letting it go with the waves and allowing the tide to take the grief out to sea.
Ironically when I arrived at Westport, on the Washington Coast, it was still foggy and a bit gloomy. It cleared up in the late afternoon and the evening was beautiful. I made lunch out of the back of my van and as I was kicked back in my van having my Veggie wrap, when my van captured the attention of two young surfers.
We got into a long conversation about what it is like to live out of a van, travel to the places my heart calls me to, and eating healthy on the road. The young man and his younger brother had the same travel bug I had and dreamed of getting a van, like mine, and taking to the road. They were still working out the details of work and money. I encouraged them, as I would encourage my own son, or my clients, to follow their heart; because, well, life is what you make it. Live big and love big.
After our conversation, I took a long walk along the beach, and just enjoyed the fresh sea air. I collected a few sand dollars with flowery designs in the center, and sat on a log, gazing out into the abyss.
That evening I parked at the Marina on the Bayside and enjoyed the view. It was a beautiful and quiet evening.
I was awakened to the sound of monster diesel trucks driving in and parking on either side of my van, idling in the cold, foggy morning. The morning at the Marina came very early for the fisherman, who talked among themselves, as they prepared for their day at sea. Somewhere out in the line of fishing boats there was the sound of grinding.
I extracted myself from my warm bed to drive back to the State Park. The park was already bustling with surfers in their wet-suits braving the foggy coastal morning, for a chance to ride the waves. I made my tea, wrote in my journal for a while and then took another long walk. It was now time to move on down the road to the next destination.
Here is a Video taken from someone Kite Surfing at Westport.
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Integration and Minimalism
I’m now back at my home in Arizona but instead of taking the whole house back, I moved into the downstairs and put together a make shift kitchen, using my outdoor kitchen, a two burner hot plate and small refrigerator. I’m slowly organizing and integrating back to living in a house.
I’ve run into several people in Sedona who have been following my blog and I say “thank you! Thank you for flying with me! I am honored! For some my journey was a reminder of their own previous van ventures, and others lived vicariously through my travels.
Since I’ve been back I’ve felt a restlessness, a sense that I have a purpose to fulfill and I need to fully embrace this purpose. I’m not ready to pack up the van again and head out. Not yet. We are now entering October, which is the nicest month of the year, here in Arizona. So I want to stay here and embrace the cooler weather while I delve directly into the restlessness within me.
I’ve begun weekly podcasting again at Pandoras-Box-Radio.com and also posting the audio’s and video’s on Youtube.
It feels like I am living more to be of service to others than to find new ways to make myself happy. My happiness comes in knowing I am being of service.
My life is not about collecting things, or distracting myself with all the usual distractions any longer. I’m more in the “clearing” phase of my life not the accumulation phase. It’s time to let things go. It is time to live more simply; more minimalistic.
Since I moved the majority of my personal belongings to my downstairs space, prior to leaving on my journey, I have the opportunity to begin clearing a lot of things out that I no longer want or need. Going through my desk drawers I found Windows 7, Windows XP and old software that is no longer valid. I threw out all my old CD burning gear as I no longer burn CD’s, nor do I have the computer with a CD burner. Some things we need to clear out simply because they become obsolete, and in today’s world this happens fast.
Last January after returning from Costa Rica, I let go of seven garbage bags of clothing and other items. I was already moving in this direction. This past week I released another five or so boxes.
It feels like one of the biggest realizations that came out of my trip is that I need to embrace minimalism, live simply and de-clutter all my spaces. I need to get very clear about what serves me and what doesn’t. Life is not about stuff! It is not about possessions. It is about living a quality life. What is quality? I’m still working this out. I’m still finding my way.
The one thing I can tell you is that Van Life was so simple in so many ways. I only had a 4 x 9 space to be concerned with. Of course I had very few conveniences that I had at home. But this was part of the simplicity.
In the past, if there was an empty space in my life, or my house, I would fill it with something. Now I am learning to appreciate the empty spaces and trying to create a whole lot more of it. It is a slow process.
The lessons I have learned on the road are many and I will continue to write about them. For now I can tell you, I am not the same. This journey has changed me in a way I can’t yet explain. It has taken me so deep within my own Self-ness and showed me things I may not have seen otherwise. I have a stronger relationship with myself, and a deeper spiritual connection.
I have a feeling that something more is about to emerge; a deeper sense of purpose, a new mission, and a freedom that can only come when we are able to identify our self imposed prisons and release ourselves.
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Flying Home
My last camping venture was at the beautiful “June Lake” nestled in the Sierra Nevada Mountains in California. The weather was perfect and it was a lovely last stop before the long drive back to Cottonwood.
The least favorite part of the journey was to drive through the Mojave desert which was 114 degrees in September. I knew I didn’t want to camp in my van at night anywhere in these kinds of temperatures so I ended up driving from my camp at June Lake to Flagstaff and camped outside of Flagstaff my last night. It was one of the longest driving days of my journey.
As I was nearing home I began to have a lot of mixed emotions. I had some practical reasons for getting back earlier than initially planned. My van needed attention. I had run into tree in Tahoe and broke my rear view mirror, so it was shattered. The trees in my Tahoe camp were close together and my mirror caught one as I was backing up. Fortunately there was no damage to the rest of my van. However my key fob was also not working and I feared getting locked out of my van. I was not given a spare key when I bought the van and the ignition key was not a “normal” key. The key fob would no longer open the doors to the van, although at this point it was still unlocking and locking the van. Sometimes it would take several attempts.
I had rented the upstairs of my home to a friend and her adult daughter and they had a lovely banner draped over the upstairs balcony when I drove into the driveway that said “Happy Return Beautiful Angel.” What a beautiful welcome. I truly felt it.
That first evening, after unpacking my van, I got in my van to go visit friends and the van wouldn’t start. Not only did it not start, but the key got stuck in the ignition and I couldn’t remove it. I tried several times and did all the usual turning of the steering wheel and letting it rest and doing it again. The next morning it still didn’t start and the key was still stuck. I called my warranty service and had the van towed, for a second time, to the mechanics. It was as if the powers that be were saying “you are home now and you aren’t going anywhere.”
Because I still had my upstairs rented out, I settled into my downstairs which didn’t have a kitchen. I set my van kitchen up outside and had my outdoor kitchen for cooking. I bought a small refrigerator for downstairs as my igloo cooler was also not working properly.
Going from the mini van to a 950 square foot space was an interesting transition. I hardly knew what to do with myself, and in some strange way I missed the van. It was the simplicity of having such a small space to care for and being completely at the whim of my intuition. I wasn’t sure how to integrate my new found simplicity into my life back home. I now had electricity and unlimited Internet. I was back to modern living, minus the kitchen.
People asked me if I was glad to be home. Did I miss the road?
I never had the feeling that I was glad to be home. Somehow all the experiences I had while traveling had become such a part of me. I had walked through some very deep passages on a spiritual level. My sense was that my journey was not over, it was just beginning. But I wasn’t sure what that meant yet.
Right now I am in a period of integration. What is next? Only time will tell.
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Lake Tahoe and More….
I left the smokey Mount Shasta area and headed to Lake Tahoe. It was only about four hours of driving.
Of course, it was beautiful! I have been blessed to visit so many beautiful areas. However, I arrived the week prior to Labor Day and it was really crowded. Since I arrived right before my work week, I didn’t have a lot of time to explore, but did find a few hours to hike around Emerald Bay and take some photos.
One of the highlights of Tahoe was meeting a beautiful fellow solo traveler who was camped next to me. She offered me her extra bag of ice as she didn’t need it and what began as a kind and neighborly gesture turned into an amazing conversation that kept us both engaged for hours. The sun went down and it turned dark, yet we were standing there in the dark talking. By the time our night ended we knew so much about each other and our lives.
Beverly worked in an Orphanage in Haiti and was on leave for a few months for some R & R. Like me she was traveling around in her vehicle but only for a few weeks. We exchanged stories of our travels and it was evident we both had a passion for the Spiritual, “the One” who guides us in our lives.
On Thursday, prior to Labor Day, I pulled out of Tahoe, searching for a quiet place to ride out the busy weekend. Some might say “is this even possible?” But, I trust in “the one” who guides my footsteps and only about an hour away, outside a little town called Markleeville, I found my place.
My Intention was to have a week of silence and solitude. I took a week off work and went into an area that was out of Cell range and just unplugged. It was heavenly.